October 26, 2014

Not Interested

I'm going to cut right to the chase. Right to the brutally honest confessions. I'm kind of in love with this world. I love what it has to offer. I love the opportunities life brings along.

I love living in a country that is more wilderness than it is urban area. I get inspired when I see snowboarding promos (though I cannot snowboard to save my life). I can't sit still when I watch the professional ballerinas en pointe. I get shivers when I watch the clips of people skydiving, cliff jumping, climbing trees, going on safari adventures, playing with lions, riding bareback. Watching people and hearing about those who are really taking a hold of life by the reins, and just living a life in a day. Living in the moment. Challenging fear and death.


I also love the world and it's things. I mean, give me a break! I live in the Pinterest age. How can someone keep their eyes off every DIY and shopping option out there? I mean, I know I'm only one of the millions of ladies who are stuck on that site re-pinning clothes they know they'll never own, crafts they know they'll never make, food they know they'll never try, quotes they know they'll never read again, and bucket list items that will never get checked off. It's the time of the time-waster called the Internet, where we feast our eyes things that can never be ours. 


I'm in love with this world. And it's terrible. Because the more I fall in love with this world, the more it falls in love with me. Only... it's not exactly the same kind of love. Where my love for the world is spawned from interest, curiosity, and excitement, the world' love for me is born out of much darker ambition. 


While I search for more things to covet and more experiences to try, this world and all its "things" becomes stronger. It weaves a web that ensnares me- a beautiful web. A pleasant web. It becomes so thick and strong that I just don't want to escape. I live in this world, why should I not be a part of it? It has so many beautiful things, it has so much to give me. There is so much I can do. So many places I can go. So many things I can have. And just like that, I am trapped in the sin of lusting over the momentary pleasures of this place I still call home.


The world's love for me is not kind and beautiful, it's dark and malicious. Why? Because Satan is the god of this world.


2 Corinthians 4:4 ~

Satan, who is the god of this world, has blinded the minds of those who don’t believe. They are unable to see the glorious light of the Good News. They don’t understand this message about the glory of Christ, who is the exact likeness of God.

Hold up. This earth was created by God. In fact- He gave it to us. Humans. Just read it in Genesis 1:28-30. He told us to fill the earth and subdue it! He gave us authority over the animals! He gave us every seed-bearing plant. He gave this world to us. How can loving the world that is His gift to us... be wrong? 


In fact- the verses and Psalms that emphasize the beauty and majesty of the earth are nearly uncountable! Was David sinning when He praised God for His creation? Was Job at fault when he magnified the majesty of the earth? They really sound in love with the world! So what's the difference?


The truth is, God's creation has nothing to do with it. Sin has everything to do with it. When Satan tempted Eve, he convinced her to love the knowledge of that fruit more than she loved the Law of the Lord. And things spiraled downward from there. When Moses argued to God to send somebody else- he was loving His worldly safety more than God's plan. When David took the census in the wrong spirit, He was loving his worldly power and dominion more than the authority of God in all circumstances.


As I think about all these situations, I'm struck by some similarities between them. Everything that those individuals loved- none of them were wrong. None of them were sinful, in themselves. It was the fact that their love for those worldly comforts surpassed their love for the One who gave created those comforts.


It explains the flaw in the phrase "Money is the root of all evil." We know better. We know it is not the money itself, but the love of money that causes greed and violence. And that can extend to every worldly pleasure. All the things I listed at the beginning- scroll up if you must- were things that excited me. They were things that made me fall in love with this world. It's because I admire the reckless and free attitude that those daredevils possess. There's something so charming and incredible about someone who is willing to risk their life for a thrill. There's something intriguing about someone who lives to find the fun times, rather than getting caught up in the details of everyday life.


Maybe there's nothing wrong with longing for adventure. But looking at the things I deem wonderful and spectacular- what do they say about my heart? Am I really in love with this life so much that fun and games are everything? Talent and skills are what it's all about, eh?


Here's a verse that will completely twist-turn that theory. It's Galatians 6:14~



As for me, may I never boast about anything except the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ.
Because of that cross, my interest in this world has been crucified, 
and the world's interest in me has also died.

Again, because I understand how the mind of a 2014 first-world citizen  works, I'm going to ask you to read that verse again, slower. Maybe one more time after that, even.

Paul has it right. And it is terribly convicting. The cross of our Lord Jesus Christ TRULY is the only thing that we have to boast about. Everything else, if Jesus is not the root of it, is not worth showing off. It is all stemming from the world, and from the god- small 'g'- of this world.

And not only is Jesus' gift of salvation the only thing we have to boast about, but because of it, our interest in the world has been CRUCIFIED. It's not just atrophying, it literally was crucified with Jesus. He took our sin, and it died with Him. And what is sin? It is putting 'me' before Him. It's worshiping the world instead of Him. So crucifying our love of the world... maybe that looks like saying 'no' to old favourite pass times, canceling certain subscriptions, protecting ourselves online, deleting some of our old favourite songs, and not looking in the mirror so much.

So I supposed that our interest and love of the things the world has to offer can be a good indicator of where we are with Christ. What else is a good indicator? How about the world's interest in us? That verse tell us  that the world's interest in us has died. No longer are we seen as prey that can be easily tricked and trapped. No, we are free beings!

Okay, sound awesome! Freedom! Liberty! Yeah, until you think about what that means in the literal sense. The world has lost its interest in us. Maybe that means we no longer have a chance of fitting in. Maybe that means we are now the outcasts. The losers. Maybe that means saying 'no' to our old favourite activities. Maybe that means we are now the boring ones. Or the weird ones. It means saying good-bye to our society and 'me-first' culture, and saying  hello to the Kingdom of God and citizenship built on sacrifice and love.

John 17:15-18~
I do not ask that you take them out of the world, but that you keep them from the evil one. They are not of the world, just as I am not of the world. Sanctify them in the truth; your word is truth. As you sent me into the world, so I have sent them into the world.

Maybe you'll remember a certain historical figure who lived that way. He is one of the few celebrities who did not become famous because of their good looks or talents. In fact, he may be the ONLY well-known historical figure who lived a life of hatred towards the things of the world, but of complete love for the things of God. He was never distracted by the products and temptations that the world offered him. And although his closest friends often stumbled and fell, He still did not listen to the world's mindset of 'every man for himself.' No, He loved on them. He loved on every sinner. He loved on everybody, regardless. 

With no superficial love for the world, He could actually BE love, fully and completely, and change the world.

See, you probably know that's my biggest prayer. To change the world. But often, it switches around and the world begins to change me. It turns my mind into first-world, consumerist, greedy gobbledy-goop. It's only because of Christ that I can crucify my love of the world, and therefore be free of its impact on me. But it's a daily struggle. It's not a once-and-for-all decision. It's a decision I have to make every time I turn on the radio, every time I get on the computer, every time I go to the store, every time I read a book, every time I go to school.

It's a decision we have to make every moment of every day, and a decision that will only be made correctly if Christ is our guide.. Today, will I change the world, or will I let the world change me? 

You live life like Christ, you'll get publicity. Oh, will you ever get publicity. But not the worldly publicity that you once loved. No, it will be the publicity that turns the world's interest away from you, and the interest and approval of GOD on you.

Galatians 2:20~
I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.

October 17, 2014

The Magic Penny

It's been a long day at the end of a long week. This weekend did not come soon enough. Youth group tonight left me with unanswerable questions and a great number of curiosities. So pretty soon after I got home, I went to the only logical place to go when one has questions: Yahoo! Answers

Call me odd, but the first thing I searched was: "What is love?" The definitions and meanings that the website coughed up for me was staggering- and took me a good 40 minutes before I finally got tired of reading the different perspectives. Allow me to share a few of the notable ones with you.


"Love is when you get butterflies in your stomach from looking into their eyes, and the sound of their voice takes your breath away."

                     .... yeah, maybe if you're a Disney character.

"Love is a word with a meaning, yet can not be defined." 

                     ....Very deep.

"I think love is looking in that person's eyes and looking into their soul and knowing every corner and everything in there and loving every centimeter of it."

                      .... Okay, that's just creepy.

"Love is shown in the sacrifice you make for another person."

                      .... This guy sounds more on my page.

"A chemical reaction in the brain that runs out after 36 months."

                      .... That is the most depressing and bleak definition of love I've ever seen.

"Love is letting your guard down and taking a chance on something very risky, which could have the best results you could have ever imagined."

                       .... Well said!

If we traveled back in time about 13 years and meet myself when I was in Preschool, the definition of love that I would give you would come from a song we used to sing everyday:


                                               Love is something if you give it away, give it away, give it away.
Love is something if you give it away-
you end up having more!
It's just like a magic penny,
hold it tight and you won't have any!
But lend it, spend it, you'll have so many... 
they'll roll all over the floor!

Maybe you know me well, maybe you don't. But if I'm to be completely honest, I will have to admit I'm not a very social person. With people that I know, such as classmates and relatives, I'm Miss Loudmouth-Chatterbox-Extrovert-Weirdo. I indulge in the deepest of conversations with my close friends. I don't bother with politeness or 'necessary' cultural greetings and procedures. We're past those boundaries. We don't need them. Our love for each other is deeper than that, and we can just be US.

But with anybody else... it's back to the good ol' "Etiquette" script that everyone in the world has memorized. "Hi, how are you?" "Good, how about you?" "I'm good!" "Great!" "Have a good day!"

...Now, doesn't that just make you cringe? It's the same conversation. Everyday. With everybody. That's as far as it goes! No effort to reach into their lives. No genuine concern for them. No need to comfort or encourage them. No need to ask about their lives. No... just stick to the basic lies that we say every. single. day.

When I'm planning to go hang out with friends, there's no hesitation. It doesn't even matter what we're doing to be doing- I just want to be with them. It doesn't matter if we lounge on couches doing nothing for hours. Being with them is good enough for me. But it is SUCH a struggle to get me to come to events where there are new people. Or people that I don't really know well. Or people that I don't really like. Or people that are younger than me. Or people that are older than me. The thing is- pretty much every person in the world could fall into one of those categories. And... the OTHER thing is... God has called me to love every person in the world that I encounter. 

It is a pain for me to go hang out with the crazy kids who just want to scream and listen to loud music. It's not my ideal way to spend a night off. I wouldn't prefer going to babysit the disobedient kids that pull my hair and fight with each other- reading a book in my room sounds so much more pleasant. Love is so hard.

I have so many dreams and passions. I want to write books. I want to speak to the nations. I want to travel the world and bring the gospel to unreached people groups. I want to change the planet. But I don't want to spend too much time in a room full of elementary kids. Hmmm....

1 Corinthians 13:1-3, 8-10~
If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.
Prophecy and speaking in unknown languages and special knowledge will become useless. But love will last forever! Now our knowledge is partial and incomplete, and even the gift of prophecy reveals only part of the whole picture! But when the time of perfection comes, these partial things will become useless.

Take another look at all those different opinions on love at the beginning one more time. The romantic definitions, the biological definitions, the obsessive definitions- if that's love, if that's what will last when all else fades... what's the point? Let's look at God's definition of love, shall we?

John 13:34-35~
A new commandment I give to you, that you love 
one another: just as I have loved you, you also are to love one another.
By this, all people will know that you are my disciples,
if you love one another.

And take a good long, hard look at Romans 13:10
Love does no harm to its neighbor. 
Therefore it fulfills the requirements of the law.

Love. Love fulfills the requirements of God's law. Always. Not having knowledge or wisdom, not talent or gifts, not working hard or serving others. These things are all good- but if they are done without love, they are worthless. Let that sink in. It's sinking in for me. I'm thinking of the hours I spend working to earn money instead of spending time with my family. I'm thinking of the hours I spend studying on my own instead of helping classmates who are struggling. These are the things I deem so important. And right now, they are all worthless without love. Worthless. It's kind of like that magic penny. It really isn't worth anything until you spend it- or give it away... right?

1 Corinthians 13:13~
Three things will last forever- faith, hope, and love-
and the greatest of these is love.